apples and apples.

I’m trying to figure out why this is so difficult now. Is it because I live with my fiance? Is it because I’m not working? (I start again tomorrow). I used to be able to lose weight so fast. I used to be at 115. Now I just feel like it’s hopeless.

Today.

All I had today was a bagel (with vegetable spread and provolone -_-) and two huge pieces of pizza. Oh and some cookie dough my friend bought. Hell.

This is why I hate being social. Social situations mean food. I hung out with my friend all day, whom i adoreee, but social situations always push me to eat things I know I could stay away from if I was alone..

I just want to lose this. I figure if I never eat if I’m by myself and I only eat as much as others do when I’m with them, I will lose, right? I mean the majority of the time I SHOULD have complete control.

124.6

subway chicken salad,

bag of shrimp flavored crackers(350) with clam chowder(400), and two smallish oranges and two mediumish pears (sliced) was what I had today.

I’m trying to have a lot of new things, especially oriental because it seems to be lower in calories for more. I even tried seasoned seaweed today (which I didn’t count as anything because its 5 calories for ten sticks and I only had 2 or 3), and it was actually pretty okay.

I’m confused whether i’m supposed to count fruit or not in my calorie count. I currently am, soo I ended up at 1268 Calories, which is good, especially since I exercised today. I’m hungry though, and it’s annoying, so I’m gonna go to bed.

Thinspo on tumblr saved me from eating more tonight.

It seems like it’s taking forever for me to lose weight now. I keep getting off track one day and then it takes like a week to fix.. I just want to lose this.